Lighter

I want to thank Somedayskinny for her comment - I appreciate it so much.  I feel so alone, and just to know that I'm not, even because one person is there, is such a relief.

Laxies have helped; down just under 10lbs from yesterday.  I ate a little - some vegetarian sushi (half the pack was purged), some apple kiwi lime smoothie, some fruit and some stir fry.  I purged the stir fry too.  Actually finally made myself drink after each bite and the purge lasted about 5 minutes, instead of 40 last time.  I've cracked it.
No gym today - I just couldn't face it.  I'm going to go tomorrow.  I'm sat up trying to read Hamlet and write on Herbert (a poet), so will probs be up all night.  Then a wee nap, then packing for my trip down south with the Navy, a swimgym sesh, and then drill tomorrow night.  It's a fast day until drill, as it's movie pizza night afterwards.  I know I won't be able to resist and I want to be sociable.  I might have a slice or too, I might eat the whole thing.  But if I'm drinking water, maybe I can fill myself up too much not to binge, then nip downstairs and purge in secret. There's the plan.
No alcohol either, so no extra calories.  Yay!

I have just over 2 months to look hot for R and I's Easter trip to London.  I'm going to be naked a lot (sorry if that's TMI), so need to get rid of this flab.  So I'm going to get back on track with running, start doing more pilates, and keep to under 1000 calories a day.  I simply can't manage to restrict to 850, not with how revved my metabolism is right now, I just binge.  So gotta add that extra 150 to try and help it out.  I know I can do that without feeling hungry.  And if I eat less, then wahey!

Anyway, BIG thinspo for today is stolen (again, I know, I'm sorry!) but is also London themed.