A glimmer of abs!

So the past two days haven't gone as planned.  Yesterday was fine, up until I went to 'work', as in the Navy unit.  And there was free port...
(the Navy lurves port and it's kinda hard not to start liking it too) and no way was I giving up free booze.  Plus it was for toasting and you kinda have to just go with it and be a good sport.
And I had also needed a massive coffee as I could barely keep my eyes open during the day and lectures and so was supa pepped.  All this amounted to not taking much persuasion at all to go out to my favourite club after drill.
It was a Fuck It moment right there and then.  I'd not had dinner, so could basically put the alcohol from before 12 on my 'tab' and still be under 1200.  And then after 12, I can just put that on for the new day and fast after.  I didn't drink too much as I'm a drink mixer and was already nicely tipsy, but the problem was the double cheese burger I wolfed down like a little piggy at 2am this morning.  Damn you Barbeque Kings!!!  And then four little chocolates when I got in.  Shit :(

I feel like shit for not having a good diet day but until I caved in and ate an Innocent Veg Pot (Thai coconut curry, not very good though so avoid) and some Quorn (fake chicken) this afternoon I actually had ABS!!!  Like full on showing through abs!  I think I must hold water or something, more than I realise and that's why they don't how much, but it was gratifying to say the least.  Plus I got a fair few compliments from my outfit.  It was a cut out black top, laddered black tights (but in a pattern, if that makes sense, not just holey, lol) and a little pair of Hollister denim shorts, with black suede wedged shoe boots.  The shorts were a size '3' which I reckon is a UK 8, which is ok, I guess.  Gonna try and get into a 6 before Christmas.  That's the dream!  We have just recruited some new starters to the Unit and they all commented how different I looked from an hour before when I was in my knee length wool skirt, big white shirt done right up to the top, gross court shoes, tie and epaulettes.  I felt skinny too, I could tell that people thought I'd lost weight.

And I have.  I'm 9 stone 9.5 pounds.  Which is 135.5lbs.  Which I know is still fucking massive but it is also only 10.5lbs from 125, which is my GW.  I hate being so up and down, but 1200 feels manageable, most days anyway, and I try and keep my fibre and protein high.  The boy wants me to eat my BMR total, which is around 1500, but I just can't do it.  I might pretend, just so he stops getting upset.  I've 'promised' to have dinner tonight.  Well sort of, just mused about having beef stir fry to him after he complained when I said I would have nothing.  I hate lying, but I need to do this like this.  I need to starve a little.  I need to be skinny.
We skyped this evening and I was wearing his Led Zepplin tshirt (theived from him :P) and a little pair of pink and silver knickers, so he ended up seeing my butt and tummy and all he could say was how beautiful I was and how much he wanted me.  I want him too but gotta wait two weeks.  I dunno why I've been like this, it must be him.  Lol, sorry if this is TMI though??

Anyway, the day has been pretty good.  I got one of my Lit books read (Achebe's Things Fall Apart) which I have to say is not have as amazing as all my lectures think.  They properly bum Achebe but he's got a horrible writing style and is no way as impressing as they say he is.  I'm now on Joseph Conrad's Heart of Darkness, which has spoken to me more in the first few pages than all of TFA did.  I also got an email about a job interview for a Press officer for a local film and TV producing studio.  It's voluntary with a view to be full paid, and looks an a pretty ace job if I get it.  And I also got a pretty good response when I asked about a takeaway job near my flat, so dropped a CV in this evening.  Fingers crossed!
If I get a job and get paid, I am gonna start getting my tan on because it always makes you look better and I'm fed up of being pasty.  And if I get a job and get to size 6/125lbs then I'm going to get my belly button pierced or get some microdermals.  They look so pretty.  I would get some jewelled ones, probably under my collarbone on each side.  Oh!  and I got made a 'Sea Mum', which basically means that I have to look after a new recruit (who's name I have forgotten :S) but also that my Boss actually kinda trusts me.  Kinda...which is a start, because he HATES me.  Lol.  Yay!

Anyway, this was only meant to be quick, just to keep up with the blogging and the weight loss.  I hate going up and down on the scales and I just wanna maintain when I reach a better weight.  And this seems to keep me sane.
And I will also get some body shots up so you can kinda see what I'm battling against and also of my nice new flat.  Promise!

Love x